the power of cramming.

for some weird reason, my hand smells like beer.

anyway, i'm elated. i finished my eng10 paper this morning, sa wakas. i've been sitting in front of my mom's laptop for days now, hoping that for a change, i wouldn't cram my paper. yet every single time, i ended up spending all my pc-time multiplying, and justifying that "i'm not in writing mood yet so i better not mess with my paper just now." oh well.

i'm counting only a few hours 'til i go back to diliman. i dunno if i should be excited or what. all i have to do is submit my paper until 5 today. i hope i leave earlier than 3. 2:30 perhaps? hainako. i usually tend to leave the house until the last minute possible. sana 'di naman today. my paper would go to waste if i don't submit it on time.

err. i'm excited. yet empty. whatever. i dunno if i really am excited. i cut myself from the texting world for almost two days already, and somehow i'm hoping that when i get back sa dorm, things will be the same as they were last week - with all the fun with my friends and floormates. but maybe things will be quite different. it's finals week anyway. and it's our last week in kalai. argh, God don't make me so emotional.

i should have my camera ready just in case. and hopefully some things for my floormates. i'll miss them, i'll miss kalai, i'll miss all the experience and the people. i know, there's no way to get back here. i'm over being a freshie. and a kalai-er. almost.

heck. before i get too emotional here, let me remind myself that i still have two exams to go. God help me.

sorry, ang gulo at plain ng post ko. hope to write a more decent post uli. anybody care to comment kahit ganito?

God bless. happy easter dearies.

PS: crammed this post because i still need to pack. and for something else i crammed, it was an easter card from all of us that made my mama cry.

J is for joyce.

i was listing down codes for all that happened around me since my last blog post (so i'd know what to write about this time), and i noticed that the people whom i listed down are all J people. haha. funny coincidence.

okay, so j is for..

jc. i have my hands up for this guy, who handles music notes so well that i can't help but get carried away during himig kalai rehearsals. before i knew it, i was swaying beside him. (and mcdo was laughing at me. rar.)

jerson. the ever-enthusiastic app head of laong laan is always on the go, especially during the fund run. (i ran an extra half-lap, for more burning of fats! XD)

jena. yey, she's eighteen na din! as usual, i dreaded talking up front (as part of the 18 gifts), but doing it for her made it so okay.

jopay. my cutie cousin loves joining in, and in last sunday's game of donkey, she was perpetually smiling even if she and ate jo were losing.

joanne. my elder sis (with me, actually) picked up the wrong visitor last fiesta and brought him to my uncle's house. good thing we found the right person the second time around.

justin. when i went to the lib for the second time (i looked stupid during the first; i didn't know what to do), i met LL co-app justin. had so much fun chitchat-ing (and secret fishing)!

jeff. friday night, i was asked to sing for the birthday of a person i've never met. as the gossips went, he is a handsome guy. happy 18th, jeff!

jo. after bringing me to jeff's birthday bash, she suddenly appeared in my room and asked to sleep over. She was so engrossed in sketching evan (and she was good), and we chatted until 3.

jp. i never knew he'd be one hell of a nice guy. he introduced me to his floormates (again, during jeff's party), just so i'd gain new friends. and he's so fun to be with.

jim. it was fun having conversation with my canadian uncle. his voice is waaaay softer than mine.

plus,another J is for...

jma. again, there were lots of jma get-aways. firstly, i had fun talking about starbucks coffee during branded gold, a seminar about marketing and branding. and then came the crazy first interviews, apps gone wild, where i did do some insane things while dressed up as a pig. right after my interview was a three-hour nonstop tambay, after more than a week of not showing up at the tambayan (i dropped by the afs office afterwards as well). lastly, there were two activities that got me involved with kids yet again - olympicnic, a day of games with the beneficiaries of jma, and art champ: i can sur-5!, an art camp for children who are battling against cancer. This has been one of the most satisfying jma events so far, especially because i am easily drawn to youngsters.

shamelessly posing during my english 11 class.

of course, there is one J that cannot be separated from me no matter what happens: joyce.

for a couple of days, the right side of my face and neck has been sore, and i've been so sick that i wasn't able to leave bed for meals. but i am thankful to my floormates who cared, especially to jonah and lalet who gave me medicine.

still, there are a lot more fun events around me. there was a friday when i went hav-hunting with bea at midtown near upm, and had dinner with knet and rebby as well. and also, i got well enough later on to dress up for the photoshoot that we had for our corridor exhibit. i'm going for the japanese schoolgirl in winter clothes doll outfit. ha!

yet, some things still hurt. like not knowing how to write my reaction paper for a black-and-white movie with a weird ending (at least for me), cutting philo to review for my bio exam, and feeling like i didn't do well at that same exam. argh. and also, something more, and much deeper than all these things. haii.

anyways, i hope this week turns out all right. good luck to ate jo who will be starting work at medical city tomorrow. and to my mom who will be having her chemo. God bless! smile, smile. :)

"joyce will be joyce, no matter what."

thanks trinabear. i just hope it's still okay to remain as me. (=,

slambook entry.

haii. and then suddenly, the vacation's over. anyway, here goes my slambook-like entry to sum up the tidbits of my christmas vacation:

name: joyce
where i spent my vacation: at tanay, my hometown
what i did: attended parties and reunions here and there

top three fave holiday events:
christmas eve gift-opening and christmas day videoke
reunion with my mom's side of the family at new year
the fun-filled laong-laan christmas party

top three loneliest events:
ma's chemo
being left to shop alone at mega (and envying those who have dates)
packing up for school

top three fave barkada events:
t-gang's breakfast slash despedida for merryn at the dike
shopping for kat's debut and the debut itself
SIC's alumni reunion with my elem-mates

top three fave gifts received for christmas:
slippers - from ma and john
bags - from santa (whoo!) and jen
accessories - belt from ate jo, necklace from besty and bangle from john

top three regrets:
having my haircut
not doing my schoolwork (as usual)
buying a crissa top again (i think i ought to go buy from another brand)

most frequently devoured food: free jollibee spag
most frequent activity: watching downloaded detective conan eps
the only schoolwork i did: my covenant writing (with rizal) notebook for english 11

and now that school has officially started (i had my first class kanina - math100), i'm bound to finish my other homeworks as well. haii.

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maybe it wouldn't really matter if i'd happen to cry miserably. just be there to hug me. i'd be fine.

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happy new year everybody! let us be enthusiastic towards school, shall we? haha. God bless! :D

counting. my bente.

whoohoo! 11 days since my last post. not bad eh. and i have tons to write about. let's start counting. from the oldest, to the latest:

twenty. after much late night to overnight practices, no-chocolate-and-less-frap days, and cheering the kalai basketball and volleyball teams with mere lip screams, i survived the four consecutive nights of song rehearsals and performance for the kalai christmas production as a member of himig kalai.

nineteen. a day after ken fabay's 18th bday, it was our first time to have coffee with him, plus get a honeyglazed doughnut treat for me and besty bea.

eighteen. my whole body was sore after putting on my super "career mode" during the funny bones game with dianne enriquez at the jma apps acquaintance party, in exchange for a david&goliath stack of sticky notes.

seventeen. the UP student regent elections called for an earlier up lalong laan general assembly, in preparation for the chirstmas party and the other activities for this sem.

sixteen. a stupid error put me on the verge of falling 0.25 lower than my math 100 departmental exam grade. whew.

fifteen. we were two hours late and without a ride home, but we had a lot of fun during earaluz cubacub's debut, which incuded a self-conducted pseudo prom pictorial.

fourteen. got wet after foolishly pouring water on myself during one of the games at jma's kids christmas party.

thirteen. finally saw my sister's room during jen's open house, and envies the built in comfort room in their room. haha.

twelve. fitted a dozen of blouses at rob, before finally settling for a blue collared crissa top.

eleven. went back to the dorm late at night for the kalai christmas party, and secretly hoped someone would bid to have me as a date.

"parang... you look good tonight."

ten. went back to diliman on sunday for the up tsrs christmas party, and received a HUGE gift!

nine. showed my love to my closest friends by giving them useless little bears, and was glad they appreciated their cuteness.

eight. did a very careless mistake, and hurt an important person.

seven. went to school from tanay, was thirty minutes late to philo11, and was lucky that my prof arrived even later.

six. "career mode" again, this time for a cheer for our jma guardian melo during the jma christmas party.

five. stayed overnight at regina balajadia's auntie's house in cainta, right near the mall.

four. had to fetch merryn louise ang at junction and keep her company in diliman, but i am so not complaining because i missed her a lot and we had so much fun.

three. did epal at the psychology department's christmas party, seached for a certain person (ehem.), and so loved the chocolate fountain!

two. my phone's memory reached its limit after i took tons of pictures during the up lantern parade.

one. my achievement: cleaning my dorm room for only an hour for the general inspection.

woohoo! now that's a quick recap of all that's happened. as much as i would like to write pages and pages of narration for each one, i'm just too lazy to do so.

anyway, God bless! have a splendid christmas! peace. God bless!

the usual mess.

ha! funny 'coz i'm blogging again. special thanks goes to all that happened during the past 24 hours and to kat's doodle notebook for inspiring me. teehee. oh well. this post is too unorganized for a start, but bear with it na lang.

okay.. i was eating dinner with jonah kanina, and before my first spoonful of rice and spicy ulam, i just typed into my reminders a quick outline of what to blog about. (okay, i'm a bit of OC). forget creative writing. i'll enumerate them nalang. plus details. boo.


number one: trust.

last night was just one of the nights when my floor conducted a surprise party. "surprise" because i'm always not updated about the activites. anyway, there's this part when they drew lots and had the lucky drawn name's bearer do some sort of stunt. they call it trust fall, and i didn't know what it was. as you may have predicted, my name was drawn. the whole activity made me high. not because of the height nor the achievement, but because of the realization that my floormates trusted me so much that after all the months we spent together, i would trust them. and i did.

number two: phlegmatics.

another highlight of last night was the quiz-type activity that we had, to determine our leadership styles. and based on the results, i'm 100% phlegmatic. no, this has nothing to do with phlegm. *ehem, ehem* phlegmatics are the kind of people who lives to give, and in their kindness, ends up being doormats. but they aren't so bad, kasi nga i'm one of them. (haha. 'yun 'yun eh!) kidding aside, the activity last night made me realize why i'm this sort of person that i am: slow in making decisions and fond of following just what other people directs me to do. i realized that i ain't that bad naman pala, because this is my style. and there are a lot of other people like me. watch out for my post about phlegmatics (i'm obssessed with the quiz, alright). i'm just too lazy to type right now.

number three: starbs.

i always told myself that i wouldn't pay for anything at starbucks until i'm working, or at least until my family becomes financially stable and out of debt. well, i guess plans are always made too early. just this afternoon, i spent for the first time for starbucks coffee. and actually, it felt good. like i'm one of the rich people i'm not. anyway, the best thing about it was the time spent with best buds bea and kat (so sad that mica wasn't there). our goal for the coming year: get ourselves the starbucks planner. haha!

number four: friendship.

if i'm phlegmatic, then kat is probably a choleric. generally, it's more of the leader, assertive type. just this afternoon (before coffee), we had sort of an argument. and it was bea's fault. haha, kidding! it was about bea, but not her fault actually. anyway, though kat didn't mean to raise her voice (which was naturally loud when she argued), i couldn't help but take it personally as a phlegmatic. (i told you, i'm obssessed with the quiz) anyway, i was pissed for a few moments lang naman, and when she said sorry, i told her i'm not angry. i guess friendship conquers all anger. or it's probably love. it is love.

number five: hurt.

there are things, and even people, who are not really for you. sometimes you know it, but don't actually believe it, until you come to a point when the realization is sudden and you just don't know how to react. do you get what i mean? no? good.

oh well. five minutes to curfew. i'm out.